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Actor is opening up for the first time about the death of her husband, , who died in January.

The "Parks and Recreation" star shared her grief on former co-star Amy Poehler's podcast, "Good Hang with Amy Poehler."

"Overall, I'm here and I'm functioning," Plaza told Poehler. "it's like a daily struggle, obviously."

It's the first time Plaza spoke about losing Baena, 47, to suicide. 

Plaza compared her grief to the 2025 sci-fi horror film, "The Gorge."

"At all times there's like a giant like ocean … of just awfulness," she said. "It's just always there and the monster people are trying to get me."

Plaza and Baena,  a writer and director, began dating in 2011 and married in 2021 on their tenth anniversary as a couple. Plaza previously spoke about the wedding on "The Ellen Show," describing it as an impromptu event held in their backyard during the COVID-19 pandemic.

Following his death, Plaza and Baena's family said in a ,"This is an unimaginable tragedy. We are deeply grateful to everyone who has offered support. Please respect our privacy during this time."

The 41-year-old said on Poehler's podcast that some days, she feels stronger than others.

"Right in this very, very present moment, I feel happy to be with you," Plaza told Poehler.

If you or someone you know is in emotional distress or a suicidal crisis, you can reach the by calling or texting 988. You can also .

For more information about , The National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) HelpLine can be reached Monday through Friday, 10 a.m.–10 p.m. ET, at 1-800-950-NAMI (6264).